sad

I'm trying to resist the feeling of sadness now.. but it's starting to become overwhelming.

Nothing to do, all alone, no one to talk to...

Then I remember it wasn't always like this. That just 1 month ago, I was having so much fun with him. He was all that I needed to talk to, play with and just enjoy myself. Never bored... cos I enjoy his company as it is.

Now I have nothing.

I miss him so much. I wanna talk to him, laugh with him, spend time with him and be loved by him.

I want him to tell me how special I am to him... how I am his princess. How everyone else who couldn't see how wonderful a person I am could just go away for all he cares.

I really really felt that he was the perfect one I want to spend the rest of my life with. I think I need him much more than he needs me. I'm glad the last time I spoke to him, I thanked him for everything he gave me- happiness, love and so much more.

Deep down, I know I want him to love me again... yet I've realized he doesn't.

If u asked me what my dream man is like, looks and character... everything I say would just be something that he is.

Funny, music lover, pet lover, smart as hell, great english, sweet, kind, loving....The most beautiful brown eyes which looked so sad because of all the things he went through...

I want him back... so bad...